i think you are more okay than you think.............

1) You are able to express what you are feeling. that tells me that you can still think. that may sound like a stupid statement to some - but as depression worsens - it can become REALLY hard to simply "think". Or to notice what is going on inside of you.

2) You are still young. That means you have a lot of good things ahead of you AND you still have enough "fight" in you to care.

3) You are creative. Terms like "black hole" and "pit" are really not super common. That shows me that you have some creativity. Some brains.

Guys will come and guys will go in your lifetime..... you are BIGGER than that. I hope you will realize that they are hundreds of guys who could only dream to have someone as special as you in their lives....

Hang in there