For those keeping up with my posts, you already know why I did this.

Anyway I called left her a voicemail, sayin thank you for everythin, wont be able to see you on wednesday , and I quit therapy, thank you for all you have done. Wish you the best.

15 min later she called and told me , that this is and will be a huge change im going through, and that we need to process it, she said Its not in my best interest to make impulsive decisions like this without first seeing her.

she told me in not stable right now, and to keep my appt. I told her , im having nitemares about my csa, hallucinations, intrusive thoughts, and the only emotion I had control of, which was holding back tears, is nowGONE!!!!!