Not until I was 55! I always knew something was very wrong and figured that I'd find out some day. I am not sure the diagnosis is correct because I was never officially diagnosed, questioned or took any of the written tests for BD. I have asked new pdoc to do this and he said it will take a while. I could actually die before I know for sure if it is Clinical Depression only or BD and exactly what kind of BD. Part of me has no clue and part of me says it is Depression and art of me says BD.