I do not know your whole story but from what I am reading here I would like to add my 2 cents worth. I understand that you are going to need a new T due to a change in her life situation not yours. I agree with what the others are saying about you going to your next appointment. I hope you do.

I can also tell you that it gets real lonely when you build up a wall around yourself to keep from getting hurt. Don't try to punish yourself or your T by not taking advantage of what T is offering you before she leaves. Who knows, new T might even be better than old T. But you will not know unless you try and T is offering to help make the change with you. Please give it a chance.