You are not your illness or hurt. If you had cancer or diabetes, and your doctor left, you wouldnt stop getting treatment, would you? The constant in your life is you. You take care of you. You let these people help you do that. I was a lot younger when i started therapy than you are now, in my early 20's, so i feel like my first 3 ts didnt even "count". But i was used to going it alone. Please dont let other peoples actions define your progress.