So my abuser is going to be around again. I will see them daily and it's hard. I have seen her the last two days, she went out of my way to talk to me. I am full of overwhelming feelings- mostly despair, loneliness and hopeless. I am Sui and not sure I can cope with this.
On Saturday I seen t, I told her what was happening. I wept like a baby and couldn't stop sobbing, she said it was the first time she saw my inner child. She said she was peeping out and just wanted to be loved but was looking in all of the wrong places. T asked if she could touch me, and I jerked away, she gently proceeded to put her hand on my back and the other hand on my head. She rubbed them for a while and she asked if I felt that. I felt something, I calmed down immediately and felt a sense of relief but today when I saw my abuser all the feelings returned. I can't have t do this every time and I don't think I am strong enough to see her daily. I don't even know what I need from this I just needed to get it out, thank you for reading

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