Thanks for posting, arachnophobia.kid. I'm sorry, though, that I don't have much good advice for you...I don't like to preach. I think you're the only one who can determine whether you can have a drink or two like a "normie." All I can offer is my experience...& it's not one size fits all.

I've had extended periods of sobriety over the past 30 years & my experience tells me I can't have a drink or two without eventually falling into my old patterns of excessive use. For me, alcoholism is a progressive disease & I know I can never drink like a "normie" for any period of time. That's just me, though. Good luck whatever you decide.