Glad to here i am not the only.

I am just not up to telling people I contemplate suicide, or that I am depressed, & other things. I do not want them to judge me, I dont want them to bring them down, & I dont want the worrying about me.

I am at the end of the rope. I just cant keep keeping all these emotions inside. I cant handle another bad thing right now, I feel that if something bad was going to happen it would push me over the edge.

My cousin was the same way for a long time, & he just hit his breaking point, & attempt suicide... I feel like that will be soon.