Thank you, I am trying to follow this line of thinking. I 'm also a believer that everything happens for a reason. I think certain mistakes were made so I could see just how bad I had gotten. I guess I can't focus on why they were made anymore, I just have to accept the lessons learned, get stronger from them, and ask for forgiveness in the future if needed. Growth hurts sometimes but it is a necessary process, whether completely together mentally or not.