I can understand your wanting to rant and get it out of your system. It sounds like you have not been given what you needed in this life whether it be love or health. I'm glad you haven't given up on faith. Let it sustain you.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha