thats the thing. ive lost almost total interest in my art. damn i blame the meds for EVERYTHING. and rightfully so. they are debilitating poisons. truly. and the last time i saw the pdoc he goes "do you think the meds are poision?". well f_k yes i think their poision but if i told him that that just furthers his belief that im delusional and need the meds.

its a revolving door of crap is what it is.