Shame is so hard, alexandra. If you feel able to bring it up with your T, I hope you will. It will only help to get it out.

Shame was by far the hardest for me to share with my T. The causative events were ones I blocked out of my memory for decades. Just poof, no recollection. Then wham, years later, I remember. T knew I wanted to unload but some sessions I would just sit there and be unable to. Eventually it came.

Good luck. I hope you get the Monday appointment.

sunny