I can relate very well. I was the first of my siblings to go to college and I even graduated early from high school. But for all the success it appeared I was having, I was unraveling inside. I could only attend school my first year part time and ended up dropping out. Years since now, I've gone aimlessly from job to job a complete mess. No direction and everyday feeling like it could and should be my last. Managing the stress of day to day life plus trying to get through the difficulties of having mental illness was very overwhelming for me at that time. Anyway, I just wanted to share. I truly wish you all the best in all that you choose to pursue for your future.