Wow, you sound a lot like me when I was that age... Curiosity killed the cat.

Well, you did the right thing and you're talking to us about it. Your fear isn't stupid; I used to be afraid of dolls - guess why that would be, lol.

I remember that it took me a few months to get rid of the fear, but I didn't look into resources to help me like you are. Maybe if you try re-reading this post a few times over, you could gradually come to realize how unrealistic it is?