i got the monday appointment :-)

though most of it was talking about my discussion with my friend... (the discussion that didn't go well). talked about different options with respect to MAKING community mental health come out and assess him and ways of communicating with his doctor while making it clear i'm PROVIDING and not SEEKING information.

then... it seemed kinda hard to change the topic really. i sorta tried... but i think he might have been feeling a bit badly about having brushed me off when i tried to talk about my friend before. i guess he didn't realise it was quite this bad.

i said i read the Schore book. he seemed really surprised. said he went to a workshop with shore a couple years back. that he had read a couple papers online. i said i couldn't really find anything online. that i got the book. then he made mumblings about how big the book was. i said 'i read it already'.

then he said 'our time is about up'. which means our time IS up. i said... 'that pain i had that they said was an emotion... he says it is a defence against shame'. kind of rushed... and he said 'what'? and i said it again. and he said 'who'? and i said 'schore. and it makes sense'. and he seemed kinda surprised. and i said 'its okay, i just wanted to say that' and then our time was up.

but i see him again on friday (four days).

so that is good :-)

he told me he found a couple papers online. when i find them i'll post links to them.