Hello pinksoil. Glad you found us. This is a good place to be.

Well, let me say, I haven't had experience with the meds your on. Most of them I haven't even heard of. However, as far as your life experiences go I can totally relate. I never completed college because of my diagnosis. I wasn't on meds even though I had already been diagnosed. Typical of many bp's. I just couldn't keep it together and I dropped out of classes. I was just a couple of classes away from a degree, had a real bad episode and never finished! It turns out it was a field I don't want to be in anyway, but that's beside the point. I'm still thousands of dollars in debt and no degree! But the truth is, I'm not really all that upset about it, go figure???

Anyway, you sound like a very intelligent and articulate woman with a good head on your shoulders. Ultimately you get done what has to be done and that is something to feel good about. I realize it's a struggle for you and probably very frusterating. Perhaps down the road a bit you can complete your goals once you get meds, etc straightened out. My opinion...you're not on the right meds. I hate to say that because it could mean more trial and error, and you've already been through so much of that. However, once you get on that right med, it all becomes worth it. Believe me...I went through that too and as unpleasant as it was, it was a necessary part of my committment to remain on meds! Life has been so much better!

I'm babbling now, but my point is that you are on the right track. You've been diagnosed and understanding the problem is the first key to dealing with the problem. Keep your resolve...the strength to do it IS there within you. Persistance always pays off.
Tgrspurr. xoxo