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I'm scared out of my mind right now since I called the cops on my husband last night. I wasn't physically hurt, and he didn't threaten to hurt me, but he scared me by throwing thing around and being really mean. He just snapped for no paticular reason. I just said something about my dad and I was drinking but not drunk, and he just snapped.
This wasn't the first time that he threw things around and threatened to leave me. We've been married for almost 20 years, and he has been verbally and emotionally abusive to me most of the time. He knows that he has the upper hand since I have issues with depression and anxiety. I also have nowhere to go.
My parents would never take my side in anything. I have friends, but none that would let me stay with them. I'm not working, so I'm at his mercy. He told me that if I leave him, I'd get nothing, not even my car! We live in Ca. btw. No prenup was ever signed. He doesn't know how to handle his anger and stress, so sometimes he takes his anger out on me every once in awhile.
I'm sick of this! I can't afford therapy as we have no insurance! He will never agree to counseling anyways! Everything is always my "fault". Ugh! He has told me that he can speak to me any way that he pleases and he has called me fat and ugly before and that no guy would ever want me since I'm damaged.
As for the cops, there wasn't anything that they could really do. I told them that he has four guns in the house and that this isn't the first time that he has thrown things around the house in a rage. They were total jerks. The cop who talked to me wouldn't even let me get a tissue to wipe my tears away! WTH? He was like, no! I think he has issues with women as he told me that he's divorced. Jerks on power trips who hate women should NOT be cops!
I'm so mad and disgusted! The pig also told me that I now have the upper hand since my husband volunteered to go to a hotel. To add insult to injury, I called my so called bff TWICE to talk to her, and she is ignoring me! She left an abusive ex husband years ago for hitting her twice. She told me to leave too and that I can do one of two things, accept things as they are, or leave. She bascially told me that she doesn't want to hear about my problems anymore as nicely as she could a long time ago.
I'm really upset that she didn't call me back! Why wouldn't she care about how I'm doing? How would you feel if this was your friend? I don't know what to do now. My husband told me that if I ever call the cops, he's leaving me for good. Is there anything that I can do to get him to stop using me as his emotional punching bag?
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