I'm going to start keeping binge food in my house once again. This is a major step back for me and it is done with the permission of T to do so.

I binge on sugar products to numb the extreme pain that I feel. To not have the binge foods at the needed time does lead to sucide attempts.

There are distractions, I just can't seem to find some activiity other than SI that brings the numbness that I have to have.

Do you have any suggestions.... something that makes you so numb you don't feel anything.

I have been asking myfelf lately, if no one loves you, is it really worth trying. Of what value is a single person that no one loves.

If you cannot even fit in a psych board with people that have similar problems of what value is your life?