thank you so much for the post!
it` s very different for everyone.
the disable thing-i was told about it i haven` heard.
somepeople hurt themselves and WHEN they do it they don`t think of attention-but it is very sobconcious becasue then they go tell a good friend.
i posted the quesiton...
well i think that by now info on this site will be enough for me

becasue when i read and talk about it for a long time i feel my skin stinging.....i don`t need it!

but thanks for the advice anyway.