I was not 'officially' diagnosed with BPD until fall of 2007: I had checked myself into a 3 day 'Urgent Care Unit' in the 'government funded' mental health center in my hometown (the only option I had due to my insurance, which is also state funded); I had gotten into a serious fight with my Dad {me & my girls had been living with my parents for a year & 1/2 , so I could 'get back on my feet' while I worked at a factory- the fight happened 6 months after being laid off from my job}, & I had to get myself together: the old saying "you can never go home again" is even more true for those of us with BPD; all of the symptoms seem to increase 100% if not more... Getting back to the subject now... The 1st day I was in this UC Unit, I saw a printout about BPD laying on a table & picked it up to read it. It was like I had just read my life story! I finished reading it, & still in complete 'amazement' I found a nurse to talk to about this 'wonderful discovery'. A couple hours later there was a group with the other patients & nurses; during that group I could not quit talking about it-all the while I cried my eyes out, because after years & years of all the pain & suffering I had caused not only myself, but also to my family...I had just found out what had caused my behavior. The next day I talked to the doctor, & there was no doubt in her mind I had BPD.
And, I saw the movie GIRL, INTERRUPTED not long after it was released on DVD: just like you said, I instantly connected with it, & related to 'Susanna Clayton', but I never made the connection about BPD the way you said you did- I only knew there was something about that movie that made me want to watch it on DVD a million times.
Now, if I could only figure out how to get it under control... I go with what I know works best for me, which is relying on my spirituality... of course, this is what works best for me, I know everyone has their own way of dealing with it. I've tried going to therapists, but just like I've read about BPD- most therapists & doctors don't want to deal with patients with BPD, because of our 'dependance on them'...in other words- we annoy them. I'm not apologizing for seeking help for BPD, even if I do get on their nerves. It's their job to help me, you, & the thousands of others suffering (& causing others pain- & not on purpose... I must say). There needs to be more research on BPD, so that we can be helped...I want to stop causing myself & my family needless pain.