thanks everyone, did not sleep well, it is now 7 am , my appt is 11 am, I always get there 20 minutes early, so I can set up my next appt, go to bathrooom, ect... settle my thoughts. My emotions are all over the place, but I wrote down everything I feel in case I cant get the words out, its a start at least. wish me luck, oh also, cross your fingers that I dont become a sobbing kid in session please.