I totally agree about the 'others worse' thing. I really don't understand how that's meant to make anyone feel anything other than more miserable.

I think maybe I feel like since I've got treatment, I've done a 180 and am now using it as an excuse. I get disability allowance and extensions on work at uni. I think about myself even more than before because everyone keeps telling me I have to because i have this illness that has a name. When everyone goes throwing that name around whenever they feel a bit bored or lacking attention it loses it's meaning and I don't feel like I have any reason to be failing at life so hard. And that makes me feel bad, so I cope less well. Then there's the fact that I'm having disdain for others, making me a bad person. My mum gives me an outside perspective by saying that she thinks these people are 'being silly' or 'wanting attention', and that's in spite of her often getting frustrated with me being sick. But I still feel bad for having thoughts like that.