Well Done Jordy! If you're feeling like you need to S.H then yes, you're feeling bad enough for help.

I've literally just had this discussion with my T 2 hours ago, cos i never feel like i should be reaching out to her and feel scared when i finally do. But like she says, it's good to reach out, to consider it as good self-care to do so and to feel proud for reaching out instead of ashamed.