I decided to take a break from therapy very abruptly 6 weeks ago. I emailed T and said I was taking a break. She was surprised and I think a bit hurt that I hadn't talked to her about it and I was a bit defeatist in my email about things. But we then exchanged some nice emails and T said I could come back whenever I like and that she will always be happy to hear from me. So at Christmas I sent her an email with some photos of my children. Unfortunately I didn't receive her reply so had to nag her and she has now replied. The thing is I miss her and was hugely attached to her. I have been doing okay and the feelings for her have got better whilst I have been seeing a different type of therapist. But I want to see T again because I miss her and she has been like a mum to me, but I am scared of getting back into the same old attachment pattern. Already from just having contact with her, I am yearning to see her. My heart is almost aching to see her. I am so low at the moment and I know she will sympathize and show she cares about me. But I will then become hopelessly attached again. I don't know if she can help me much further with my issues but I miss HER. I need HER.

I know they always talk about closure and taking time to end therapy but I'm wondering if I am someone who just needs to cut off to be okay with it, rather than drag it out and bear the pain of losing the attachment. So do I cut my losses now that I have somewhat lessened the attachment feelings or do I follow my heart and go back? Talk about ending? Just see where it takes me? I don't know what to do!!!