Thank you everyone for the responses, it helps so much to know other people have similar situations. I guess I want them to understand me, but if I realistically think about telling them I have BPD, I don't think they will accept that diagnosis. I am get the feeling sometimes they think of mental illness as an excuse and that I should just get over it. Things have been a little better since I moved out a year ago, but they still have such a hold on me, even though I'm completely independent. I want to be in contact with them, and I want a better relationship with my sister too, but everything is just so one-sided now. Everyone is scared to talk to me, and I don't think I did anything that was beyond normal teenager wanting to move out stuff.