It has been 5 years since I have been in treatment and I do consider myself recovered to a certain extent that I am not underweight by any means, especially compared to what I was back then. I just assumed the thoughts would disappear as well. I am always thinking about restricting even thought I don't do it. I think about purging but more than half the time I don't because I am too lazy.

Do we live like this forever? Does ED ever leave us alone?