Thank you for posting the link! I've been reading the 2nd article-- very interesting!! It's helping me to make more sense about myself. Like this paragraph:

"Because early abuse negatively impacts the developing brain of these infants, it has enduring effects. There is extensive evidence that trauma in early life impairs the development of the capacities of maintaining interpersonal relationships, coping with stressful stimuli, and regulating emotion"....... it's also interesting about how they've observed dissociating in infants. No wonder it's as automatic as breathing for some of us.

I've been told by a much older sister that when she was at home I as an infant, desperately clung to her-- she was my "safe zone"-- but she was in highschool and moved far away right after she graduated.
I struggle with relationships to this day. -- When I was little I was "in my own mind" all the time..... no friends at all--(explains my "not so polished" social skills ) it was safer to be alone-- one can't be hurt when they're alone, the problem is-- it can be very lonely.

Hey, that's great you got to meet with T. and that you'll be seeing him again real soon. I'm there with you in spirit- -- hoping this one will be the one that really "clicks".

mandy