My two year CBT therapy ended before Christmas, after a four week gap my T asked me to come for a final review session to see how I'm doing (my session is next week).
The problem is, that although I really miss my T and have thought about him a lot during this break, I don't really want to see him a final time (I don't think I could bear it knowing this really is the end & I will never see him again)

Also, I'm really really worried that if my final session does not go well or if I say something wrong (so to speak) I won't be able to fix it as I will have no more sessions! This really worries me, so much so that I am considering just writing him a letter explaining why I couldn't come - what do I do, please advise ?