I know that this probably isn't the place for it, but I talked about it earlier and so I figured that I'd bring it up again.

I seriously can't get over this guilt over how much I'm eating. I'm going to have one beer at the bar tonight, and all that I can't think about is the calories. I keep getting hungry and cravings and eating until I'm stuffed. I feel horrible and guilty. My mum bought me two bottles of Sriracha because she knows that I love it and I feel awful because I opened one three days ago and its half gone. That's a reckless way to treat a gift.

I'm tiny, but I feel bloaty and gross and am forcing myself not to hide in tonight. I'm trying to exercise beforehand and walked to school today to burn off some calories. I'm not depressed. Is this typical PMS, or am I possibly on the verge of a relapse? I'm a recovered bulimic. I switched to alcohol way early in that illness because I got caught, but when I binge drank and made myself purge, no one could catch me (for awhile).

Sorry if this seems trivial. I'm ridden with guilty and really distressed :/