I am soooo depressed, it is worse at night, and I'm just so tired... I want some time to check out for a while, but its not possible. I'd actually welcome a hospital stay, even as bad as the experiences I've had have been. Voluntarily there for a while, to have someone care for me... I haven't eaten anything healthy for months, I know its affecting my brain. My son is okay, he is looking forward to school after harsh weather kept him home an extra 3 days. This morning he said "What?? I'm so sick of this, I want to go to school and see my friends"....kids don't say they want to go to school very much. I'm glad he is okay through all my depression. I know I could do better though, and I will.