So, I'm not in any hurry to make a decision...just annoyed that I keep going back and forth.

For those of you who don't know, it is a long story, at the end if October 2013 my pdoc terminated with me. In the letter he left open the possibility of re-joining at a later date. With that in mind...I asked PCP to prescribe my meds for some time with the conclusion being my asking pdoc to take my case on again. Before I could do that though I had to get down to business in therapy...focusing on DBT.

I have been working really hard in therapy on DBT and even at home. However, I have such a good start on this work I don't want it bogged down with thoughts or feelings about all the possible outcomes...not just his answer but my reaction to his answer. I'm almost positive I would not do anything but the idea of those thoughts and feelings coming up again kinda scare me.

I have the letter written, stating my case should I decide to send it. The problem is making a decision one way or the other. I have done the pro's and con's and the pro's truly outweigh the con's. However that doesn't seem to be enough. What would you do?

The letter wouldn't be sent till T gets back from maternity leave when ever that all happens. She could have the baby this week or they induce or c-section next week and then it's 4 weeks from that point that she'll be back. I just wish I could make a final decision on this letter. I think the problem is I want to know for sure he would consider taking me on again before I send the letter and there's no way for that to happen.

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