That's really sad, Scorpion Boy.

I agree that these T's should be reported for completely inappropriate & sexual behavior. You are not being helped. Therefore, they are not doing what they're paid to do, and they're doing you a huge disservice as they get their kicks! Very wrong.

You need to be able to work through these emotions and traumatizing experiences that you've had. Maybe you should go with a "safe" type of T for now, one whom you have no physical interest in whatsoever, so you can focus upon yourself feeling better. I can assure you, you will always carry these things with you (no matter where you are). If you aren't "okay" with yourself, that's when we create even more problems for ourselves to work through. Please do keep that in mind for motivation to not give up on trying to feel better by going to therapy.

The two women that you got hooked up to are truly in the minority. But, yes, unfortunately T's like these do exist. Please do give therapy another try. In my experience, it does take time and work to get the right fit with a T so that you can open up to them in entirely. It isn't an immediate thing that we automatically allow people in to see our emotional world. You need to build a healthy relationship with a T whose mission is to help guide you through your personal journey in understanding & accepting yourself.

Very best wishes to you!