I don't really have the right to say this as I honestly can't understand what you're going through, but please, don't give up on hope. I honestly believe that no-one, NO-ONE is worthless. Especially not you. I've never met you and probably never will, but if you don't give up, it will get better and your life could become something really great. And all of us at psychcentral are here for you to help you get through this. You're not alone. So please, don't give up on your life.