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Originally Posted by costello
I don't know your pdoc, but I guarantee you have a 1000 times better chance of him working with you if you'll work with him. When you flush the AP down the toilet and wash a month's worth of Xanax down with alcohol in three days, he's not thinking, "Oh, here's good candidate for recovery." He's thinking, "Lacks insight. Uncooperative."
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yea
its not that i havent tried. and especially not before. i went through the ringer with one doc in 2008. i tried for two years was doing perfect. gained 80 pounds. was unattractive but i tried my best and hardest and the doctor turned out to be a reall bad doctor. blaming my weight gain on me. had me misdiagnosed. all sorts of stuff.
thats when i renounced psychiatry in 2010. never saw a pdoc again or therapist or anyone.
came back to psychiatry in 2011 or so.
costello...
its just....im so sick of my life and with psychiatry. ive been through the ringer. the bad docs.
many many many hospitals. the uncaring therapists. and then sometimes no help or inadequate help. more often than not being through all that stuff.
and im so sick and tired of that.
im sick of trying my hardest and then having a bad doctor or one who wont listen to me. im sick of trying my hardest only to get inadequate help. im sick of trying and then having no support and falling through.
i have really tried with doctors so hard for so long.
and i gave up this year. because they arent helping or not working with me. and im trying to get back on track.
...again. its hard but im trying.
and i know the fight with this nurse is going to go down in my history as uncooperative. but how much can a person take when they are trying and no ones listening to them and they are being practically bullied or pushed into medicine thats making them sick. because this nurse was ACTUALLY bullying me in some ways. i admit my behavior was wrong but im glad i stood up for myself.