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Originally Posted by newtus
yea
its not that i havent tried. and especially not before. i went through the ringer with one doc in 2008. i tried for two years was doing perfect. gained 80 pounds. was unattractive but i tried my best and hardest and the doctor turned out to be a reall bad doctor. blaming my weight gain on me. had me misdiagnosed. all sorts of stuff.
thats when i renounced psychiatry in 2010. never saw a pdoc again or therapist or anyone.
came back to psychiatry in 2011 or so.
costello...
its just....im so sick of my life and with psychiatry. ive been through the ringer. the bad docs. many many many hospitals. the uncaring therapists. and then sometimes no help or inadequate help. more often than not being through all that stuff. and im so sick and tired of that.
im sick of trying my hardest and then having a bad doctor or one who wont listen to me. im sick of trying my hardest only to get inadequate help. im sick of trying and then having no support and falling through.
i have really tried with doctors so hard for so long. and i gave up this year. because they arent helping or not working with me. and im trying to get back on track. ...again. its hard but im trying.
and i know the fight with this nurse is going to go down in my history as uncooperative. but how much can a person take when they are trying and no ones listening to them and they are being practically bullied or pushed into medicine thats making them sick. because this nurse was ACTUALLY bullying me in some ways. i admit my behavior was wrong but im glad i stood up for myself.
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Not to gang up on you but I agree with Costello on this one....doctors go to school because they want to help people...you're not letting him do his job...that pisses them off because they see you are sick and want to help. They might not always know how to help you...finding the right meds is not easy. So long as you are non-compliant they will keep you on an injectable and the choices there are even fewer. The goal when you get a new doctor should be to build trust on both sides...once they trust you and you have to earn that trust then they will be more flexible. If you fight them you will lose...either because they just don't want to deal with you anymore(they got into medicine to help not to coerce or parent) or if they consider you dangerous then it will be hospital because they can't just trust you. Either way you lose. The thing is this...you are not a child anymore...people aren't going to react to you as if you are still learning how to be an adult...you are an adult and have to take responsibility for you own well-being but right now you are acting like a child by blaming other people for your non-compliance. Most people learn these skills by working...you have to put up with a ridiculous amount of crap especially if you work retail but you can't say anything or you will lose your job. No tip...same guy 5 times...you keep serving him and with a smile. Life is not fair...it never will be...you have to learn to navigate by making things as easy as possible for other people and they will return the favor. People want to help you but they will not if you keep fighting them when they want to help you. If you are homeless living on the street and someone gives you a twenty you don't ask for two tens instead you take the twenty and thank them profusely. You not only refused the twenty but lit it on fire just to see it burn.