Like everyone else... I agree that it comes across as angry and confrontational, and could be worded in a more helpful manner. It sounds like you're setting it up to be you vs. the new T instead of trying to work with the new T.
I'd reword them like this (but this is just my rewording)
1. You cannot fill my therapists shoes. I am worried/scared of being hurt and left on my own; it will be difficult for me to trust you.
2. Dont expect me to accept you with open arms. I am going to miss my T and it will take me a long time to possibly build as good of a relationship with you.
3. Dont try and make silly jokes with me to break the ice. Making jokes to try and bond with me makes me feel like ________.
4. Dont offer me any tissues. I do not like having tissues offered to me because ________.
5. Dont use any csa words that I dont like (I will let her know). I feel uncomfortable when these words are used and would prefer to not have them used. I am likely to react to these words by __________.
6.Dont expect me to believe you when you say you are not leaving. I have strong abandonment fears that have been intensified by having multiple Ts leave me. Please do not try to reassure me that you are not leaving, because I do not trust you right now.
7. Dont expect me to become attached and wear my emotions on my sleeve. I find it hard to show my emotions, especially when I am feeling abandoned and scared. Please do not push me to show more emotions than I am comfortable sharing.
I've tried to reword your statements into helpful, instead of accusatory, statements. They are giving the new T information about you, instead of just listing demands. It will help the new T more to understand what your fears and hesitations are so that they can help work with you for those.
You might also want to include the topics that you wish to work on first with the new T. Everything in your list is either things you don't want them doing, or things related to the abandonment you're feeling with your current T. Which is also a totally valid thing to want to work on, but it doesn't mention anything that you've been working on with your current T.
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