You're fighting everybody....when you go to a doctor it's not like you're somehow doing them a favor by going ...you are going to them because you are asking for help. They have 4 years of college 5 of med school and another few of residency/fellowship and whatever job experience after that. When you visit them you are asking for their expertise and help. If you don't listen to their advice by not taking the meds they choose then you are fighting them you are saying that you know more than they do....that you don't really need the meds. If you are hallucinating it will be a general consensus among everyday people and doctors that you need the meds and you are saying that you don't that is fighting. Now you do have choices basically on the type of med. You're probably stuck with injectables due to non-compliance but there are a few of those to choose from. If haldol is horrible for you you can change to an injectable risperidone or abilify but your choice is not no meds unless you want to leave the system. There is no point in having a pdoc if you won't listen to them.