I would never turn away a true seeker of truth! You see, there IS proof...but the best proof is when you are finally able to experience God's indwelling... hopefully this discussion thread will lead you to find that experience.

My best friend growing up was Catholic. Did you know that the Catholic church used to insist that if the parents would give them their children for the first 3 years of life, then the Catholic church would have them "forever?" They knew the premise of early training.

I'm sorry that something is making you feel ill at ease. I hope I can continue to help you to find something that works for you.

There is proof of God. Are you open even to that? Can you allow yourself to entertain the notion? This is a good beginning.