I made it back to my apartment. I managed to spend 20 days with my parents (my abusers) and without T without relapsing back into SI. I just wanted to thank everyone for listening to my problems and supporting me even when I'm being difficult.

I'm seeing both Ts later today... I'm a little nervous to talk about what I remember but I'm so happy I'll have the chance. Hopefully, this will help. I obviously don't expect it to just magically get better today, but hopefully in the future.