Ok if its your decision to take the meds to stay out of the hospital then that's OK but I thought you were saying that you just took them to stay on disability---that's entirely different. I understand about not liking the side effects---if you were able to work and support yourself you would have a choice in whether you take them at all if you could blend into society without people knowing. If you recover enough to be off of them you will have a choice. What I'm saying is that by accepting disability you are making a deal----you don't have to be on disability no one is forcing you to take the money. But you chose to accept the deal, now you have to live by the rules---see a doctor----what that really means is be on meds if they think you need them. If they think you are ill enough for disability then they are by definition going to think you need meds. The only realistic option out is to change the system itself---but as most people are afraid of the mentally ill it will take a lot to change the system. Your best bet is to give it another try at recovery. If you don't want to be on the meds I absolutely support that---I don't believe in forced medication---however that would break the deal for disability so you will lose that. Decide what you want to live with---side effects or no money. Pick one and make an effort to stick with that choice it will make your life a lot easier. I don't think its fair or reasonable but it is the way the laws are currently set. Personally I would support disability for people with no treatment because it is less coercive that way---but its not up to me----the laws are already in place.