Losing friends and loved ones to disruptive life events and death is never easy and just deliberately cutting ties is probably not a good habit to practice? Everything we do teaches us something and the way you took your break, without consulting your "partner" taught you something but it was probably not something helpful to you in your future life? If you have a habit of avoiding difficult interactions, you cannot learn how to deal with them by continuing to avoid. It is not cutting one's losses because one is not going far enough to see if there are/would be loss and experience what that is for one with this person, etc. What you feel at the moment is mostly generated in your own head, not from the actual relationship and getting to know and work with this person. Your yearning for your T is not helpful to you but cannot get resolved by just stopping seeing her, you learn that "relationships" are painful that way (and thus keep avoiding) and that they cannot end less than extremely. You do not learn to "let go" and move on with your own life, still yourself and "whole", just to chop/chew that part of your arm off, like it is caught in a trap?