from what I can see you are experiencing normal reactions to this situation. I'm glad you aren't also angry, as some become. I'm sorry your friend thinks you should be. I agree that you can make this a good topic in therapy...it will be more than just whining or complaining, but a good relationship builder, imo.

With regard to the maybe you don't need a T at all is, well, illogical from it's root, imo. How is that possible? The hope of getting help in 3 weeks is far different from trying to have hope forever. Why would you come to the conclusion that you needed a T's help with coping 3 weeks ago, and because you haven't received that help, you don't need it now?

I hope you don't keep mulling this over, but leave it for therapy. ((hugs))