i certainly appreciate all of you being open and honest. wouldn't it be nice if there was an easy answer?

its a true battle not to hate every male walking....even though i'm a mother of two wonderful sons and deeply in love with my husband. still, i hate their sexuality, its all consuming for them. i hate that sex is the center of everything.
it would seem logical that i wouldn't want to be with a man after being abused by them...........but i do.

annabelle, wish there was an answer for you. being here will help, i'm sure. maybe? heck, how do i know.

in our mind, there is a sexual one. basically telling me to be quite.

its all so confusing.

my head is spinning, think its time for pain meds and hopefully some sleep.

peaceful rest
summer