basically everything that i did in my behavior has been resolved. they said they realize its the illness and that im going through some rough stuff. but they STILL upped the medicine. so im not getting more MILLIGRAMS but getting it more OFTEN which is like upping the milligrams in the month basically.

work with me here.
im torn by this. i can barely get out of bed to do anything on this meds for 2 weeks of the month. and now im getting it twice a month.

they just wont listen. and ive compromised with them. or TRIED.

if i cant do anything but sleep on this high meds than how am i supposed to live. im being drugged so much. and it would be weird if no one saw what was happening to me.

they want to put me out physically and says thats a "con to the meds thats acceptable" yet expect me not to be mad because i cant do anything in life. its not like im on a 1 or 2mg tablet. im on 100mg of haldol injectable. twice a month now.

they dont even want me to goto school.
they said:
no driving
no going to school
no getting a job
but they say do something with my time. theres only SO MUCH i can do PERIOD - while drugged. and at THAT they dont want me to do a lot of that stuff.