Don't let anyone tell you that you're not important or that your struggle isn't either. Depression (which is what it sounds like you are dealing with) is hard to cope with, not just for you but for people around you - it's widely misunderstood, which can make it even more difficult to find compassion and help. But it is out there - and you can find it.

It can be depressing trying to find help, but don't give up - somewhere out there is someone who will work with you to find a solution and build up your mental health. You are important, and so are your feelings. I know it can be daunting and some days it just feels like the black hole is going to suck you in and never let you go - you CAN fight it and win. Everything you described are classic symptoms of depression - and it's good that you decided to talk about it. It's a first step towards many that will bring you back towards the light.

Don't worry, you're not alone.