My parents would prefer that, if I want to go away to college, that I stay relatively local, which, in this case, would be the college that is only an hour away.

I have applied to these colleges and was accepted to the one two and a half hours away. I plan to transfer for Fall 2014.

I used to be on Lexapro, but weaned myself off of it because it didn't work. I haven't been on it for a few months, to say the least. My mother keeps on trying to get me to postpone the appointment because she doesn't want me to be on medication, like my dad and aunt, but I feel that I need it, despite me getting slightly better at coping, which my parents don't see.

I'm not sure if we could be roommates because she's already rooming with a friend and, from her stories, it sounds like this friend would be jealous if she were to room with me... I'm not about to ruin my friend's fun due to my anxiety issues, but I feel uneasy rooming with someone else who has to deal with my anxiety issues, if it does pop up again.

I can't see a psychiatrist/psychologist/therapist because we can't afford it, even with the sliding scale. We have insurance, but apparently it still costs a lot for an appointment. My parents refuse to let me see one and I don't have money to afford an appointment, either.

My main concern is if I end up dropping out and go back home for five months, because I have trouble finding a job - I also have trouble keeping a job, partially due to my anxiety (when it pops up). The longest I kept a job was two months, it was temporary, and everyone was friendly.

Needless to say, my parents don't trust me to go away to college, especially that far away.