I'm the cause of everything. I'm the reason my spouse and I are fighting. I'm always the reason. I'm annoying her. I'm trying to understand what I'm doing so I'm asking and it's just making it worse. I want to go away. Where I can't cause anymore pain. But I can't I'm not allowed to. Days and days it's been. I made the good things happen at work. It's always because of me. I want to stop being the reason. why can't I understand? Why can't I stop being the reason. I want to go run a million miles too much energy to be contained. I'm being pulled in two different directions at the same time. Stretched between the two polar opposites. I feel like I'm two stuffed inside one. Squished together each trying to make the other one disappear, but now is when they're blended. Worst aspects of each forced to coexist and work together or suffer the consequences. Not blending so the consequences have fallen. Deal with it or.... Pdoc please work out. I can't do this anymore. Not by myself. Need balance. Overwhelmed. Little sleep here I come. Love hate relationship. Jumping up and down trying to beat the beat down to no avail.

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