Everyone agrees with my decision. Taking a break would have been a really bad idea. I don't work so what would I do. I cannot go mushroom hunting. There is only so much drawing and reading I could do. My mother told me it would make my depression worse.

I feel really lazy and unmotivated. It could be the depression. I have been trying to force myself to eat. Hopefully this will give me some energy. I am also trying to take a shower everyday. That seems to help my mood.

I don't know what my diagnosis is. I am questioning my past psychiatric history and all the diagnoses I was given over the years. Since I was once diagnosed with BPD in the past I started a thread about psychotic symptoms in BPD in the BPD forum.

Gr3tta, what is the pell grant?