So for the past few days I've felt alright. I mean I've gotten a few ups and downs. Idk its hard for me to figure out my moods. ANyWAYS I've had a few unsetteling incidents though.
A few days ago I was walking down the stairs and I kinda lost track of what I was thinking and I had this horrible urge to push the girl infront of me down the stair. I don't know why. And I imagined it happing and it was very vivid.
Then on the bus early in the morning I got kinda lost in thought and I imagined everyones throats got slit open. Its not like I was seeing it exactly but I was. It was very creepy and disturbing.
Today I was getting something out of my backpack and I saw a bug. Its super cold where I am so I have no idea how this bug got there. I'm not scared of bugs either. anyways I was kinda like "whatthehelll" and tried to get it out of my backpack. Later it was crawling on me so I kinda freaked and flicked it off and I don't think anyone else noticed there was a bug crawling on me. For the rest of the day all I could feel is panics and bugs all over me