Hi, it's me again asking for advice.
Don't know if this might trigger someone so I put the icon just in case..

I'm finally seeing my T tomorrow. Last time she told me I was doing well and am very ahead in therapy. I was happy about the compliment but fear she will terminate me before I'm ready, maybe without noticing it. I managed to calm down and wanted to discuss it with her, just to define the whole thing better. I even wrote her a letter that I hadn't planned to give her, just to remember the things I wanted to say.

Now, a lot has happened during the break. I was harassed by my boss and I contacted T asking for help without explaining the situation. So I guess she will want to know what it was about. Things are ok now but this left me really shaken (it's related to my trauma). And now I feel ashamed at the thought that I have to talk about this, what if she thinks I invented it to play the victim because I'm attached and so I "need" a new issue? I do trust T, I just feel so much like a source of problems and a pain in the *** and I want to hide forever. I'm tempted to just talk about the first topic and not this because I feel like I'm playing the victim - even though I'm having nightmares and that sort of things. Or should I forget the fear-of-termination-topic and concentrate on this instead? What would you do. Sorry for this messy thread, I don't know where to start. I'm so confused.